I really do think that I’ve seen more doctors in the past month than any respectable person should have to.
Despite breaking my collarbone almost a month ago, the doctor that I’ve seen recently that worries me the most is my regular primary care doctor. I’ve been seeing him for a few years now, and his number one goal is to get me to lose weight. I have been on board with this since day 1 as it’s been a struggle for me my entire life. However, there have been some issues with how to go about doing this and some of them have been not very pleasant.
About a year and a half ago, the dosage of the daily thyroid medicine I take underwent a rather radical change. I switched both the medicine and the dosage. I ended up losing 30 lbs / 13.6 kg in a few months time. My doctor was ecstatic. However, we have not been able to duplicate that progress since. Since then, my doctor has tried to put me on a drug called Phentermine which is an appetite suppressant. The drug comes with a B12 shot which is administered before you leave the doctor’s office as well as a (very bad tasting) multi-vitamin that you take twice a day. The first time he put me on it maybe 8 months ago, it did not go well. I was instructed to immediately take the full dose everyday. I ended up not being able to do that. After 2 days, I got terribly nauseous all the time and I just couldn’t take it. My doctor took me off of it at my insistence.
Now he’s put me back on Phentermine again, but with an adjusted schedule. For two non-consecutive days a week, I will take the full dose and essentially fast the entire day. The other five days of the week, I will take a half dose and eat less, maybe 1,200 calories or so. This should go on for a month or until the medicine runs out.
Today is my first day of ‘fasting’. Because of my theatre performance schedule, I have decided to put my fasting days on Monday and Thursday so that I can eat on show days which are Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. So far, it’s going okay. I feel like my body is trying very hard to be hungry, but the stomach pain of hunger never appears. I’m going to try to just do everything like I normally do on a Monday. I’ll go home from work, go for a walk, do some laundry, and just keep getting stuff done.
I know this all sounds crazy, but according to the CDC’s BMI calculator, I am “obese”. For my height, which is now about 5’4″ / 160 cm, I need to weigh between 108-145 lbs / 49-66 kg. That seems so… crazy. I have an app on my phone that tracks weight and I’ll probably start weighing myself every 3-4 days or so. I am really interested to see what progress (or lack thereof) I actually make. By the time I visit my friend Eileen in London, I may look like a completely different person.